Hi there! Welcome to my new blog. I hope to use this as a spring-board for a (I hope) funny performance piece about the ridiculous race-conscious mental gymnastics I experience daily as a progressive, well-meaning white person. Did I say it was meant to be funny?
For the longest time I was never able to laugh at myself. Maybe turning 50 did it. Enough of the earnest, approval-seeking bullshit of my 30's and 40's. My racist gaffs (usually in my head more than anything, for lord knows I've been vigilant to never, ever ever ever ever ever make a racist mistake ever ever ever, and if I did, then just shoot me right there so I wouldn't have to suffer the embarrassment of someone else noticing, white or black, or brown, but especially someone of color, oh dear...blood pressure rising, anxious thoughts, anxious thoughts), have often gone to the wayside of my subconscious, filed under the "too difficult to deal with right now" category of my private mental purgatory.
What a way to live! The stress alone could cause cancer!
So here goes, crazy white people with your weird thoughts about race, give it up. Start sharing. Let's laugh through the pain and break out of our crazy cycles. Who knows what strength and clarity will emerge!
